I had a tutorial scheduled with Jonathan the 4th of December 15.40, but he couldn't call me until 16.45. I wish he gave me a notice that he would be late as I was sitting up waiting for it for a long time.
I wanted to ask a few questions, as I have been failed and given a retrieval process. I had written a things I wanted to ask or talk about beforehand, however I felt interupted whenever I asked anything. I couldn't finish a sentance, and he would answer my questions with another question. It might be true whatever he wanted to point out, but I found it very dismissive and rude to do so. I felt not heard, and did not get anything out of this tutorial. When I tried to ask questions, he also said I tried to argue, which is simply not the case. I was reading up the questions I already had, and I just wanted to understand what had happened.
To give some context, we had a talk in October, discussing the work I had done since June, and we talked positively on my work. We also talked briefly about my oppurtunity working with Gyldendal, and he encouraged me to prioritize this job over my research paper, as due was the same week. He had a "keep going" attitude which motivated me to keep improving my work on the Philbert project, and I thought things were going much better.
I am not sure why I would have been given the advice to prioritize the job instead of the paper if he knew I was close to failing the course. I got interupted when I asked this question.
This is what I wrote down on the 3rd of December, before the tutorial, to ask and discuss with Jonathan, but most of it I couldn't get the chance to even ask because I got accused of trying to start an argument. I just wanted to understand. I never meant to come across as argumentative, I ask to recieve answeres, not to get another question. I want a tutorial where I can ask questions without feeling harassed.
things to discuss with Jonathan
I am confused as on our last tutorial, we were discussing my work in a positive way, and you seemed to be happy on the way things were going. This led me to believe my work was satisfactory, at least not fail worthy. I am confused as I would assume you would tell me if I was about to fail, not considering the research paper. I had no reason to believe I was about to fail the course after our conversation. If you had informed me of that, I would have prioritized my blog and work before this evaluation. I realise the research paper might’ve leaned me poorly in this evaluation, but as you directly told me it was more important to prioritize my job, and I assume you would not have told me that if I was doing so poorly otherwise.
You mention several times in the grading that my work has had “only a small improvement” and that I have “a certain style that you have stuck to consistently” which I don't understand. When we had our tutorial, you spoke about how you have seen big improvement and that you enjoy my Philbert Project. I have tried many styles, but wish to keep it on the digital format, and when I mentioned a few styles I tried for my Philbert Project, you said “It’s probably better to keep the style consistent, if you want to show them together”, which I agreed on and continued to do. How you can critique that after explicitly telling me to do so, I don’t understand. You also mention that I dont challenge myself artistically, but I tried to do that at the start of this term, and got a lot of negative comments about how my work was all over the place. Since then, I have tried to keep it more to one big story, and to create one big project. I have taken your critique and done something about it, but now you critique me of doing that. I don’t understand what I am to do then.
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